So I celebrated a friend of mine's whom I've known forever moving out of his house today. It was crazy, drunk, emotional blah blah blah but it really made me think a lot about my friends and relationships. Especially in this sense...

A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or
a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is
usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you
with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason
you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realise is that our need has been met, our
desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you
sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount
of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things
you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

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Demos for Life [revisited]
Current mood:Powerful

Well here goes... who we are, what we aren't, what we believe, and why we believe it. It might surprise or disappoint but we can do nothing but be who we are. So the first thing we aren't is slutty. Sluts mouths have been alot of places. Ours may have been on a lot of people but only one place kthnx. And you! with your boyfriend. It's okay to have sex with him or maybe if your "good" everything but sex? Well in our eyes thats slutty. Boyfriends come and go whether you like to admit it or not. You're not committed until there's a ring, a real ring, on that left hand of yours and a legal commitment only a court or death can break. And to all you who judge, a girl who has one night stands is no worse than the girl who sexes her boyfriend after 4 months just because well "we've been together for 4 months." Heck...or 6 months or a year or 2 years. It's all BS really. Who decides when is "ok"? We've had guy friends since kindergarden so does that give license for us to have sex with them and not be deemed slutty? The logic is really not logical at all. Your "in love" but people fall out of that all the time don't they? True love waits, it's as simple as that kids, as simple as that. And we laugh at those stupid questions like but what if you marry your husband and he's really bad in bed? or... Don't you get bored with kissing and nothing else? I suppose we'll start with the first...if to any of you honestly think sex should be your main concern in marriage that's just pathetic and if you would decide not to marry someone simply because they "suck in bed" then really we feel sorry for you and hope you eventually realize there is more to it than that and besides that even if it is true...people can learn :) And now to the second... boring? HA! far from that. At this point kissing is pretty dang fun. Different people different places you can mix it up. But really we should be asking you aren't you bored? or won't you be bored? How about your wedding night...what's so special about doing something you've done with boys/girls many times before? You always remember your first time and really we'd rather have fun with the kissing and start other stuff later in life and be way excited at all the new things to be experienced then.
So on to the next thing, we are not teases. We make it perfectly clear what we do and don't do. Just because the notsocomplex mind of young men seem to make them think they can push us farther than we want to go doesn't make us teases it just makes them stupid and more importantly incorrect in their expectations. We'll make out with you, quite enthusiastically actually, we'll sleep at your house, we'll tell you we want you but really don't expect anything more. We are just two girls out to have fun, meet lots of people, and enjoy being young and enthusiastic. To us kissing isn't a big deal. It's fun but not some super display of emotion. You hug a stranger why not kiss them? Not that big of a deal! So girls always hear boys saying how confusing and unstraightforward we are but really let's jsut set the record straight because we think the real problem is that boys just can't accept the answer they don't want :) We admit girls can be confusing in their "yes" answers, frequently using maybe or w/e you say in place of a yes because well really it just makes us less vulnerable but when we say no we mean no. If you ever allude to us ever dating or being together in the future and we reply with NOOOOOOOOOOO! or that could never work! or Never!it means just that...we will never date...ever see its true when it comes to saying yes girls aren't so straightforward but when we say no we mean no and if we are even potentially interested in you we won't reply so concretely if theres any hint of a possibility we'll be together. And really most girls are to nice to even reply with Nooooo! so if we do you know we mean it 100 percent. This goes for hooking up too. Like when we say "don't" you know exactly what we mean so don't be stupid and answer with "what?" becuase its beyond annoying and just makes you look like a total tool who needs a kick in the balls. Yes, we like kissing but that doesn't mean we want to do it 24/7 especially if we really care about you. We'd much rather lay on you, laugh, talk about stupid things, watch movies, take walks... because those are the simple things that are fun when you're with someone you care about. You're not going to take your hookup buddy on a stroll around the park. So if we're willing and wanting to do these things with you you should feel special and not constantly try to touch/grope/kiss/go farther with us cause then you are just ANNOYING and like every other boy in the book.
So there you have is we are not saying you have to agree but at least think about our point of view. We are Christian, and proud of it. And tell us where in the bible God tells us not to kiss... nowhere. Really the reason some people don't like kissing that much is because they see it as a starting point as opposed to a destination. Don't get us wrong at times it is but thats quite a while down the road. And once again we laugh at those who say just making out is boring. Really that just means you suck cause when its good, it's good :)

It always bums me out when I have to realize I've learned one of those life lessons that after you learn it you always wish you hadn't had to. Whenever people write me off it jsut makes me quesiton how genuine the entire relationship was. Was I the only one who cared about them like that? Was i the only one who felt they could never live without that friendship? I must have been because I could never do this. I've never been one to choose boys over my friends for various reasons. The biggest of which has probably been that relationships leave you hurt and end but friends are there forever. Recently though I've come to realize its not always true. Somehow I chose to overlook the first best friendships that came to an end. That hurt me like hell just as much as any relationship would, but I guess I never really got the lesson through my head. I've continued on but now realize that my best friends can hurt me just as much as any boy ever could, and actually because of how I am its even more. I don't let boys in, or trust them as much as my friends so when I'm hurt by them its actually worse. It sucks when you come to the conclusiont hat the other person has given up. Its not like before because you've been replaced. So what if they aren't dating you are still replaced. You can say you haven't chosen him over me, but explain then why when you did offically get together we NEVER hung out as a group anymore but for the four months I had a b/f before that its what we did every weekend. And now because you chosen him over me you don't need me anymore so in this conflict you've let me go, given up. I suppose its a part of life I should get used to becuase it happens every time. Friends aren't forever and I keep lying to myself like maybe this time it was, but apparently not. You may think i did something wrong but I already apologized, already tried to make contact and you ignored me. Not to mention you fucked u. What you did was jsut downright mean and makes me think that maybe you'd decided to not be my friend before you even did it. I'm glad you have someone to fall back on as a replacement because I'm not as lucky. I always keep friends and boyfriends seperate so he's not an option and don't think he is. I've leaned to love and lose long before it was with a boy, and you've continued to make me learn that.

I grew up with a best friend
We were as close as two little girls could be
At least that's how I felt
Until it had to end and she denied the whole thing

We were together everyday
I thought we had that bond
So when she told her "I've never had a best friend"
I was too hurt to respond

So then came a circle of three best friends
Which quickly became a link of two
And the thing that really bothers me
Is I introduced her to you

Others around us saw a group
That lived their lives in close range
But you both know you broke away from me
Before I began to change

You attempted to act
like we were all "best friends"
Which only made my life more hellish
Because no one assumed I longed for another to befriend

No of course I don't dislike you
And that's why I'm such a mess
Because I still love you all
And I know you couldn't care less

I suppose a childhood of mistrusting and disappointment
Only made me the strong person and friend into which I grew
So I thank the people in my life today
for never being like you

This is for all my friends today. The ones I know I can call at anytime and not only have an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, but also two hands ready to cut any bish that hurt me. To friends who love me and let me know it. To friends not here for a reason or a season but for a lifetime. A best friend who is always willing to fight to keep us together because we've both been screwed and we know we've found something good in each other. To the friend who even though we might grow apart for a short time we snap back with full force and the other never doubts how much we mean to each others lives. To the ones who support what I do no matter how wrong or stupid it might be. Who aren't afraid to be real, to show emotion, to admit they are wrong, or need help and do nothing but support when I do the same. This is for everyone in my life God has blessed me with and those before who made me realize just how good I've got it now.

I love you and thank you.

We've heard the cliche
Things come and go
I'm sad it applies to everything
Our friendship no longer shows

You think they'll be there
But one second there gone
Is it something I did? It must be but
I can't tell what went wrong

The conversations stop
Attempts are no longer made
I know I dont feel good about it at all
I'm wondering if they feel the same

Apprarently not
Because I think if that was true
We wouldn't have lost trust
I'd still be able to turn to you

I don't give away trust
And you all wonder why
When that friend is gone
All of me cries

That's why I give up
Because it's just not worth going through
I can no longer take the ones I know
Becoming the ones that I knew

When life hits it always seem to put everything into prespective. We realize our selfish selves are just that and everything that seemed so important and intense in our lives begins to feel so trivial. Its no longer the biggest deal int he world that you haven't gotten your right classes or barely have enough money to get by. Its no longer an immediate emergency to find out what people you can hang out with tonight or how you'll get out of work the next day. Death sets our priorities straight and a lot of times we need that. Whether we're close to a person or only know them through a friend its going to affect us. I firmly believe God has a reason for everything. At times -one truly does need to be put in their place, to examine their lives, and he uses beloved people to do that.